Apa Ya?

Apa yang membuatmu mencintai seseorang?

Banyak yang bertanya padaku; Mengapa harus dia? Apa yang begitu spesial darinya? Apa yang paling tak terlupakan saat bersamanya? 

2 Juni 2014, 12.21 AM - 1.27 AM

Aku sudah hampir memejamkan mata ketika kulihat beberapa chat yang belum sempat kubalas.

Seorang temannya yang belum lama kukenal menanyakanku tentang kapan kami dapat berlatih bahasa Inggris. Ia berencana belajar conversation in the airport, restaurant, and other public places.

"You can chat me anytime," jawabku, "Although I probably couldn't reply you asap."

We talked about his desire towards Australia and I replied him that the only reason I wanna visit that country was that a couple with different religion could get married there.

"Do you have any wish on June?" ia bertanya padaku.

"Me? Just wishing for a reply for my messages from him."

"Why just replying your message? Why u don't hope u can get him merried wkwk"

Ugh, gimana yach? I know how to hope and I know how to limit that hope.. Aku pun mengalihkan pembicaraan hingga ia bertanya kembali;

"When he was your boyfriend, what's memories couldn't forgot until now? And how long your relationship to?"

"Hahaha.. #kepoh" jawabku.

Chat kami berlanjut sejenak hingga ia kembali bertanya, "How much you love him?"

"I don't know. If I were strong enough, I would not delete his BBM contact at the moment I knew that he had a girlfriend. If I love him much, I would let my text messages saved but never sent to his phone number. If I love him that much I'll let him go and find his own happiness instead of wrote story and mentioned him.."

Perhaps I'm just too selfish to let him go.. Maybe I'm just too stubborn to face the changes.. Probably, I just enjoy this love

"What gifts do you have from him?"

"Me? Books, love, memories, happiness."

"What about kissing? Wkwkwk"

"Hahaha, ups! I'm blushing now #OMG! next question please :) "

Kadang gw juga suka nanya diri gw sendiri, seriously. Gw ini cinta apa obsesi? Sayang apa frustasi?

Dan kali ini, biar waktu aja yang menjawab pertanyaan-pertanyaan itu. 

Happy Monday anyway :)