Bloody Days

What's on your mind about 'bloody days'?

- Having some good wine?

- Fighting with some bad guys and be the hero?

- Dying?

- Getting your neck happily sucked by the handsome vampire Edward Cullen?

For me, it,s about the time I donate my bloods.

I'm B type by the way. 

 

The simplest reason I do this routine is not because I just wanna help others, but because I feel happy when at least there's something useful that other people can use from me.

Unfortunately, I can't always experience this bloody day every 3 months.

Sometimes my HB was just not enough. The other days my blood pressure was just too low.

But somehow, I found myself going back again and again to that cool place, PMI UDD Kota Tangerang.

I didn't remember when did I go there for the 1st time, but when I was a SPG, I used to sell You C 1000 to their canteen.

Sometimes I ask my colleagues to come with me. I would always bring someone (anyone) who wanted to go there with me, so if I couldn't donate my own blood, at least my friend could.

That's why most of the officers recognized me. They are young, not bad looking, and cheerful people :)

Recently, I had an unexpected bloody days; I'm dying, stuck with so many life problems. I almost forget why should I live.

And few hours ago, I made myself get into that place.

I was waiting for some news & I just couldn't go home yet.

I didn't think I could do the transfusion. I've been trying to do it since December 2013 and my health was just never good enough. 

I've cried a lot in some recent hours.

But somehow, I could pass the test. Yay!

Donating my blood was helpful. The HBO presented Hunger Games during the transfusion. I became no longer too desperate in my problems.

Perhaps all I need was just meet up some strangers who smile to me, accept me as who I am, some strangers who ask nothing from me, some strangers who make me laughing without asking what happened with my eyes, some strangers who thank me for what I've done, some strangers who are not judging me and my problems, some strangers to make me forget for a while.

Yes, of course my problems are not gone with the wind! They are still here with me.

But I will always remember, that there are still so many good people out there. If you don't wanna get hurt or get into troubles by people close to you, maybe some strangers would help a bit.

So if you experienced 'bloody days', maybe it's time to give them yours. It would be good.

For every strangers who gives others their smile, thank you :)